Since I last wrote, I’ve crossed a new threshold. I’ve now been on this journey for over 300 days and have just than 49 days left in my formally planned experiment. I write a lot less often than I did in the beginning, probably as much because I am busy with a variety of other things as anything else. But it’s also because over the course of the last 45 weeks, I’ve really learned to live my life without alcohol as a major focal point. This change has taken place over time, with consistent effort, discipline, and sometimes difficulty. But more than anything it has happened because of COMMITMENT.
The commitment I’ve made is not so much about not drinking as it is about making being present and putting my overall health and well-being a priority above momentary and often artificial pleasure. At times I’ve substituted other things to take away the void left by eliminating drinking alcohol – and my chocolate consumption went up pretty drastically for a while. But week by week, I found that I needed to fill that hole less and less.
Over the last month or so, I’ve had about one small drink per week – a cordial of some kind – just to enjoy the pleasure of the taste and the mild warming feeling that came from drinking it. I’ve also tasted almost every beer, cocktail or glass of wine Dave has had when we’ve been out and none of it has appealed to me. Boy, times have changed.
As I come closer to the conclusion of my experiment, I suspect that I will for the most part remain a non-drinker. That actually kind of shocks me. However, I don’t think I’ll be a complete teetotaler as I now see I can enjoy alcohol in small amounts, especially at home, without it being a big deal or something I can’t control.
But for me, I don’t think drinking will ever be the same as it was. I sincerely feel that it will never again be a habit I participate in without truly thinking about it but rather an activity I selectively partake in when the moment seems right and the libation is something I truly enjoy. And that is something worth toasting to!
Cheers – and Namaste:-)